



WOOHOO! i caught these helicopters during their rehearsal on Sat evening.& i was like shouting in my flat : "i could hear them, but i dont see them!" wahahahs.& i hurried from my parent's room to lift lobby just to snap shot it (:****yesterday's was FATHER'S DAY! =)& we had tze char for dinner.it was supposed to be a day for daddy.but the dinner seemed a day for me & sis.caused we were practically laughing our hearts out."later hoi wah come no door"classic of the night! muahahahaha~"stupid glue, stupid glue. such a stupid glue" LOL!****argghhh. im back from my dental appt.goodness, & i just had a gum extraction above my left wisdom tooth =/& it still feels numb right now.given painkiller & anti bacteria mouth rinse.zzz..& my tooth hurts badly now.gggrr..i simply wanted a different celebration this year;
it has been a routine yearly, to the extent that i dont feel it special anymore.
perhaps 20th is gonna be a change to everything; a new resolution in life ahead.
i wasnt looking forward to the celebration, all because i know plannings is gonna be the major chore eventually.
i had the most ruined birthday last year; the most hurtful one as well.
leaving me in fear, & scarred.
& i dont deny we tends to take things or people for granted now,
for being the bestest or closest of friends, slightest gratitude & thankfulness similarly has vanish.
why do i had to go the extra mile in making arrangements that i wont enjoy at the end of the day?
why do i have to please everyone's schedule?
why cant people make things exceptional for once?
why cant they JUST BE NICE FOR ONCE?
im seriously disappointed, after going through so much, i still gotten face the fact of pride from within.
i hope this will exert as a push factor, to once again harden all emotions & feelings.
i know how & what i enjoy most. they are still good ones that agree to celebrate without much consideration & promptings.
clarification & explaination are done to those i cared;
for those that arent appreciative & without true intent, i wont probe a word further.
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